Bellabitchpon

Finally

Fri, 18 Dec 2009 11:14:42 GMT

Touching the pages,

admiring,

wishing to understand,

laughing about the silliness, the _expression_,

I'm just holding it tight to my chest, just for a little while...<3

Guys, I love you. I cannot wait to do Japanese studies in some years and finally understand everything you want to tell <3

The snow

Thu, 17 Dec 2009 21:30:17 GMT

When I woke up this morning, I was delighted to see the snow outside of my window. I turned up the heat, went back to back, seriously happy for not needing to go outside.

The whole day I've been craving for something nice...Well, I ended up getting a coke around afternoon, but thats just me. Instead of getting ice cream in summer, I eat it on the coldest days, on the railway station. Like its not cold enough yet.

So yeah, 3/4 hour ago, I did went out, because I wanted _anything_ good. Chocolate, of course.

Stepping outside, hearing those _sounds_ beneath my feet, walking on the set snow. All the white around me, I grinned. I love the snow, mostly.

Anyway, for the first time ever, I missed my parents, my dogs. I have such wonderful memories about us all in the woods on the first day's snow. The dogs, well I always miss them. To have a dobberman or a rotweiler.

Nahw, no tears, I promise. I'm fine. And cute to see so many blogs talking about their finals XD Power to you. We're young and restless right?

New years resolutions.

Mon, 14 Dec 2009 16:37:23 GMT

Lets believe in them, shall we?

Getting my diplom.
Re-awesome my room.

Buy a sewing machine, learn how to sew.
Buy a bass guitar, learn how to play.
Get tattoo's.
Get a decent iPod with 16gb space for all those music and video's I'm gonna to pre-order
Become blond.
Cosplay Hiroto.

Kay that was it.

Ah, the most important one, but I don't need that on a list ~~visit Zora and Julia ASMUCHASPOSSIBLE~~

smirk

Mon, 14 Dec 2009 10:42:56 GMT

Hah, this is the best thing I ever came up with. Nice how my mind works sometimes...

Some days ago, I've found a beautiful amazing picture, where a military and a military dog where 'handshaking'. Beneath it were the words: Semper Fidelis (not only marines live by this motto).

It was so a nice and heart warming picture. So today I thought how cool it would look to have this on my lower back. But yeah, I'm symmetric with my future tattoo's, so I would have to have one on my lower belly as well.

So, my mind...

'Having 'Simper fidelis' just above my...Oh dear'

XDD Being 'ready (to fuck) at all times' LOL

NM

Mon, 23 Nov 2009 15:41:08 GMT

I WENT BECAUSE OF THE WOLVES
YES M'AM, JUSS BECAUSE OF THAT.

Seriously, and because I saw Twilight online. And because I love vampires, always did. I'm wondering if half of the fangirls who've read/seen Twilight ever HEARD of the Darren Shan books.

Anyway
THE WEREWOLVES
WERE SO FULL OF AMAZING
I WAS AMAZED!!!
Ahwww maaaan, I totally LOVED Jacob-WOLF's EYES and ways!!! So PERFECT DOGGISH!!! I had to adore his human-puppy eyes as well xDDD

AND THE NAKEDNESS IN THE MOVIE
Thats what I wanna see: More bare chested manmeat. The tattoo to show they were part of the tribe, LOVELY~~~!!! And I'm totally woo'd away by Emily and her FACE. I giggled when Sam kissed her 'bad' side <3

AWH AND THE END
WAS AMAZING
AND LOVELY
AND AMAZING

I loved the scene where Edward supsersmashed his cell, Rio in the background

Talking about rain, I never wanna hear ANY bad word about MAC ever again. Blackground and Carbon stayed ON MAH FUCKING LIDS. They didn't move, neither were washed away by the HEAVY weather, even when I felt the drops ON MY EYES!!! They only thing I do have is a bit creasing and a lighter color, but bitch who cares XD

Mhnn, and I walked all day with just a tank beneath my jacket XDDD I had my shawl on for protection so <3

&&then i went to the BK after the movies...

WELL
BOO THAT

I never left any fastfood restaurant so hungry and unfulfilled than today >___>

Angry chicken? Angry. My. Ass. Bitch please, that should've been jalapeños? Faked ones, maybe. I mean, they didn't to anything!! There was NO sharpness at all on that whole fucking sandwich.

Dude, I've eaten the Arizona burger at MacDonalds. There was a bit chili powder on the bread top, and a bit of pepper in the sauce. WELL THAT MADE MY NOSE RUN ALRIGHT.

So yeah,you can see me running to the snackbar as soon as my stomach yells for it >_>

Mhnn, I'm too lazy for pictures uploading nao, maybe in two days XD

Thats all~~~

rant, begone. Second part

Sat, 21 Nov 2009 23:01:03 GMT

Excuse you?

ME.
EMO
ME OF ALL THE PEOPLE IN THE WORLD.
E-fucking-MO?
I'm the most fantastic OPTIMIST in the world!!!!!!!!!

So all my entries are emo, or else about Hachiko (first time I talked bout him) about food (like your DONT do that...) or work (B. I. G. surprise when you work forty fucking hours).

Ah, you cleared what you think _WAS_ emo. Man, people don't see the hate in those words huh? Most of the things did have a meaning, but no ones cared right? Its not an emo statement but a FACT.
Gosh, my dad's from '42 alright? He would have a saying for that shit you're pulling >_>

well
now you've done it >_>
But what. ever. I told you that before but juuuusst keep thinking I. Am the emo one.

Rant, BEGONNEEE!!!

Sat, 21 Nov 2009 21:18:35 GMT

HOLY JEZUS MOTHER OF GOD ON A TESTICLE TUESDAY.

Some people. Some times

Be THANKFUL for once in a while, would you??? Less acting like my parents, MORE acting like my friend, would be nice and appreciated.

GOD

It would have been JUST a little present for BOTH X-mas and your birthday AT THE SAME TIME.
Nothing big,
JUST AN IDIOTIC STARBUCKS MUG
and you favorite brand of cigarettes.

That I actually SEARCHED for those Pianissimo WHATEVER cigarettes, ACTUALLY thinking about importing them for you.

well, forget THAT. Forget it~

And don't think I'll back down JUST because you think you can say whatever the hell you want. Those times are SO over.

's last time I'm thinking about buying you a present, for real. Oh, and yeah, you never have to bother getting me something, because you actually do not do that ANYWAY.

What.
EV
UR.

Done

(and no, I haven't forgotten that you rode us through the country, letting us sleep in ur bed. I haven't forgotten about your money either. In fact, I've told you that you would that, didn't I? Even if my promises take a while to fulfill, I DO THAT.

whipped cream on coffee

Wed, 18 Nov 2009 17:01:07 GMT

Mhnn,,,I had a whole lovely ranting-bitching-gettingitoutofthesystem blog in my head, but oh well.

I'm just a too optimistic person.

As long as a day can become good (or better, if I think about this horrible night and morning), as long as people can give me a reason to smile, to laugh, I'm fine.

Today from the job rotation: Technical service.
Although my back hurts like hell, I've sweat more than a human should be ABLE too, I had a fun day. The guys I hanged around with where super funny, and one actually stated (after some colourful language and dirty jokes from my side) that I'm 'not like everyone thinks you are'. I know people think of me that I'm naive and stuff, too sweet to be.

Today's food: Kalb fillet with a hint of vegetables, bread with ham, a banana, and on special request from my part: Kerrie chicken with rice<3 Seriously, I'm good at friending with people who cook for me XD~~ Everyone of the food&beverage is so nice <3

Ahhh just two more days...Just one day work and Friday_> I had some stomachache around noon time, but after lunch and some few laughs it became better >///< The pills work fine and I laughed a lot with the guys so <3

Bag craving: Gosh I know I shouldn't walk in that goddamn store...But whenever I'm in the center, I just can't go around the Puma store there. It was last month I think that they had that gorgeous flaming red bag. It was much like the messenger bag I had, but the material...THE MATERIAL!!! Its that kind that can get wet and stuff, the water would just drop off it. I won't BUY it actually, but it is NICE.

Anyway, that was it. About the post I had in mind...Well, there will probably come a time when I want to talk about it. The thing is, I know sadness, its a common feeling with me. But this _rage_ that is taking over from time to time lately is insane. I feel like I want to stomp with my foot, to cry out loud how unhappy I am, to disarrange my face like I do... It went on all night, wasn't gone by morning either. Although I hate to get displeased so easily, to be thrown of balance...Yesterday, my fist wanted to connect to the wall _so damn hard_.

What I did though to relax a bit...I sang Alice Nine songs (who had made my day SO perfect...) and Akeboshi's 'Wind' silently to myself.

'Cause,,,
'Waiting is wasting, for people like me.'

ùu

Sun, 15 Nov 2009 16:27:44 GMT

I wanted to make this entry forever and ever ago.

You know what? This is my journal, and no matter what I have written in here or will write in the future, its part of my life, part of my day, part of those things I love. Accept it or not, but don't fucking bother me with it.

With that said, I am going to shop next Friday >///w//< I can't fucking wait anymore!!!! I just hope they still have the Pinkzapoppin package for me there... *sends up prayers*

A-L-S-O-!-!

Some guy (I like to think its a good looking guy XD) across my building hit the drums today, it sounded srsly fucking good. Dude, I also went to the cold _COLD_ balcony to listen to him~! Just to bad I couldn't determine where exactly he lives ùu Ah whatever, not like I'm gonna go after him XD~~~

Mhhhnnn I wanna restyle my room sosososososo baaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaadd~~!!!!! I just cant get myself to CLEAN here for Pete's sakes XD

Mnnnnnn I will now play with some make up...I wanna do a look Hiroto had for an jewelry kind of shoot lately. I really like his blond hair too!~!!! He looks so player with it XD His natural pouty lips.........MHNNRNRNRNRNRNNNN!!!

Belly goes Halloween style nao

Thu, 29 Oct 2009 10:34:00 GMT

My LiveJournal Trick-or-Treat Haul
bellcheria goes trick-or-treating, dressed up as Ruki in a Hello Kitty costume.
ahja_reyn tricks you! You get a dead frog.
catfish_blues gives you 16 teal peach-flavoured wafers.
flakkers tricks you! You get a clothespin.
fraufleischmann tricks you! You lose 5 pieces of candy!
lady_osiris tricks you! You lose 1 pieces of candy!
quirkerstein gives you 2 softly glowing peach-flavoured gumdrops.
riku_rocks gives you 19 pink spearmint-flavoured pieces of taffy.
zora88 tricks you! You lose 15 pieces of candy!
bellcheria ends up with 16 pieces of candy, a dead frog, and a clothespin.
Go trick-or-treating! Username:
Another fun meme brought to you by rfreebern.

Reyn, why in seven hells do you give me the dead frog _BACK_??
Zora...you damn fastfood junk. 15? Seriously, 15???

That took forever

Tue, 27 Oct 2009 15:11:37 GMT

But srsly, that idiot didn't tell me that I had to put the picture THERE
:/

Oh and this shit:

http://cmgtcontent.ahold.com.kpnis.nl/cmgtcontent/media//000271100/000/000271138_002_61864_200.jpg
is srsly adicting bizns...

And gosh, I survived that bitch >_> Now I probably still have to talk to both women but whatever.

sigh

Wed, 07 Oct 2009 20:30:04 GMT

Seriously...This whole situation ist just....

ó3o

Mmmmmmmmmmmmmm i just need some time to think and srsly formulate my words before everything goes mayhem.

Whatever. Rock is freedom baby!

JAPANESE CURRY I WANTZ A

Sun, 04 Oct 2009 13:30:46 GMT

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6t0BpjwYKco

Srsly, it's not as hard as I always thought it would be. But I have no idea where I can get those curry blocks oÓ Probably in an asian market....Maybe I should visit The Hague's chinatown............

And I lolled with the dog XD Such a cutie!!

bdakdbsadbshdbsh

Mon, 21 Sep 2009 16:46:28 GMT

CHILLIN

GAMING

HAVING A GOOD TIME!!!!

(this is ur Bellypon, together with landlord J-sama and Queen of Games, Zora)

THE HELL????????????

Wed, 09 Sep 2009 00:24:18 GMT

What in all kinds of JEZUS!!!!!!!!!!!! CONNICHI IS IN 8 DAYS, MIYAVI-SAMA'S CONCERT IN 16!! WHEN THE HELL DID THAT HAPPEN????

Dude, whoever stole my time, GIVE IT BACK YOU LAZY MOFO'S!!!

AND. I am hungry *A*

Dressed tomboy meets skirt

Mon, 31 Aug 2009 15:24:41 GMT

Dressed up & no where to go

All I can do is waiting for you

What does it matter? None to me
Nothing to do or to feel

Perfecting my hairstyles: One bang at a time!!!

NIE WIEDER BRAV D<

*FLASH*

The first one is ur bellypon outfit of the day. The second one, me blending with the background XD. The third was just a play with possibilities.

Lolcat moment. We all have them, no?

This was ur Bellypon, over and out.

ps, I found the kewl thing of resizing the pics in here and having them stand next to each other. OMG EUREKA

Teh days

Thu, 27 Aug 2009 17:37:10 GMT

Days pass by so quick

the feeling of loneliness returns

but I know, every day, I can wait for you

you'd be there, keeping me smiling through it all

thanks for being my best friend!

through what ever happens

I will be your best friend too!!

>////////////<

Mhnn, lets start from the beginning!!!

DAY 1: 23-08

DUDE
I WAS GRINNING LIKE AN IDIOT IN THAT TRAIN!!! But what I disliked...Utrecht Central station had a Starbucks opening there. So of course, everyone who came by had one.........EXEPT FOR ME OAÓ

Train ride was kinda nice, as it always is <3 Dude, one day, these train tickets (tickets in general) will kill me dead.

In Frankfurt Airport trainstation, I switched trains. I went to the WHOLE back, just to hope it would be the end of the train when it started XD When Zora and I meet, I wanted to have SPACE. And not some stupid people who need to catch their next train or want to go to the exit or anything else. Poor Zora-babe had to walk a long, long, long walk...

and when we met

I SCREAMED
Like, one of those screams you hair in the rollercoaster XDD Pretty loud >////////W////////<

Zora lives a bit south from Stuttgart. The house she shares with two friends is nice!!! It was really spacious and cosy there >///W///< Each time I visit her, I always choose one corner to drop my stuff, and make it mine |DDD I mess it up all the way *lol

We ate at Subways (DELICIOUS) and I gotta say, everything tastes better or is just general better when I'm with mah baby~~!! We had fun there and at home...the first thing we both wanted to do was roleplaying |DDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD WE'RE ADDICTS DON'T HATE US!!!

We were up and about till 3 or 4....*LOL seriously, we love it |DDD

DAY 2: 24-08

We chose this day to go to Stuttgart. I love this city!!! I always spend so much money here...

One thing we saw on our way:

XDDDD

The only bad thing was that, when I went to the MAC store, they said they wouldn't have the MA collection till the 31^st....Bull shit >///< Nahw, I asked my senpai now to get me one of their quads, In the Galler. It screams Uruha x Aoi to me (both guitarists of the band the GazettE). I know that I also want other purple shades, but these are IN STOCK ALL THE TIME. Not limited.

Mhnn, the day was hot and we walked a lot...Finding the MAC store in a warehouse store wasn't easy DDD|

We also got for what we went: A sweet smexy yellow boxer short for Zora (she forgot her pj's XD) and a sweet nice BLACK plaid for me (I forgot that/or just didn't pack it because I was having so much in mah bag already...).

But then...........

We saw shoes.........................

and

I BOUGHT

ONE FOR ME

AND ONE PAIR FOR HER

The same shoes OAO
Lemme show!!!

They walk SO GOOD. I took a size bigger than I always had, and they fit well. Also its not such a pain in the ass to get out of them XD
BUT THEN
BUT
THEN..........
Z had to see those to-die-for over-the-knee BOOTS.

We both put them on for the shit and the giggles AND WE SHOULDN'T HAVE DONE THAT. Especially Zora, who's totally into Uruha and wants to cosplay him. (Also KH2!!!) These boots were perfect, and she looked so goddamn smexyliscious in it...........

I swear to God, if we would be lesbians, I would fucked her stupid with those boots on OAÓ

Something sweeter now XD I saw that tiger and we just HAD to take this picture!!!

ISN'T IT CUTENES!!! This tiger is on my wishlist now...........................MADLY!!!!!!!!!!!!!

To lift our hearts a bit, we went manga shopping. AND THIS IS WHAT HAPPENED.

I wanted to have manga's from which I already ownded the first band. So, I was looking and looking and OMG I found Rin 2!!! So, I took it.

Z took it outta mah hand and putted it back.

“It's stupid and not worth it, trust me.”

“BUT ANOUSA BUT BUT BUT-”

“Trust. Me.”

“ZZZZZZzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz!!!”

“You can trust your uke ûu”

“Pouts...”

Yeah XD The next day I got why I wasn't allowed to buy this book *lol

A-l-s-o-! I bought a biograpfy about Karl Lagerfeld * A* He's mah idol!!!!!!!!!! he's a genius!! He's a God....

Mhnnn, after that, Z threated me on Starbucks. *flails and makes all kind of noises* She had a vanilla latte and I took a ....frappucino?? With caramal, cream, and chocolate sauce on top * O* It was TEH HEAVENS!!

The chocolate muffin was made of awesome win too! Also, I got a Stuttgart thermos bottle * Q*V

I loved to sit around there and have some fun >//w/< We didn't really cook much *LOL The first two days were Subway |D~

DAY 3: 25-08

Zora needed to go to her university to do some stuff, so we wanted to wake up a bit early. I was three hours early. I wrote some shit to lift my mind and made some funny comments on Zora's site XD

Later we went to her university to find out that the lady she needed wasn't there, JUST ON THAT DAY *GASP We still spend some time there hanging (me needing chocolate XD), taking pictures like these

This is an insider between us XD Lemme share!!
Last year we sat in the same park, and we had the same GLASS Coca cola bottle. Z had him in hand, stroked up and down (DUNN ASK WHY) while a couple with their baby passed! The baby was inside his rolling thing and looked SCHOCKED at us XDD It was so amaaaazing and funny, and ever since we said, that Z's move made the baby boy gay XD

and being a bit quite. Its nice, you know these awkard silences and these pretty silences? We have those last ones .///u///. It feels so good to know that we connect and have that same 'wave' length with things XDD

Mhnn! Anyway, one of her roommates was gone and after that, Zora came in, standing inside the door.

“Come, I have a package for you.” *grinning

“For moi?” *Pointing to herself questiongly

“Yeah, now come on!”

So I stood up, thinking of what in all hellz she got me as a pre birthday present. Whatever floated through mah mind was superfucked away
WHEN THE CP10!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!(Four ladies and one gent) WERE MY SURPRISE OAO
THE BEST SHIT EVER.
I had another of those rollercoaster screams and took some steps back, holding on the wall.
I WAS SO AMAZED AND SCHOCKED AND SCREAMED AND COULDN'T BELIEVE THEM STANDING THERE JUST LIKE THAT!!!

The best thing, they hda planned this since Z knew I would visit her with my birthday OAO AND NO ONE SAID A SHIT TO ME!!!

We huggled and laughed and sat together~ It was so amazing, they would stay overnight >///W//< Then we took AN AMAZING trip to the supermarket XD I still cannot believe we had to walk 1 km for it!!!!!!!!!!!

AND WHAT WE BOUGHT THERE
OMG
SO

MUCH FOOD!!!!!!!!!!!
........We payed 70 for food, and 30!!!!!!!!!! 30 for sugarsweet stuff...CAN U BELIEVE IT OAÓ In fact, it was just bread, sushi stuff, pizza stuff, and junk food XD AND WE ATE IT IN TWO DAYS AND ONE NIGHT *Dies

The pizza was AMAZING!!! After that we played a hardcore edition of Trivial pursuit (and woah shit, I ACTUALLY KNEEEWW STUFF!!!!) and ate A WHOLE LOTTA JUNK FOOD!!!

Then we celebrated my birthay >///////////////////////////U///////////////<
It was so sweet! Another rollercoaster-yell errupted from me when Lilly and Linda stood there, hands on their backs, THEN REVEALING NESTEA PEACH, MY FAVOURITE DRINK OF ALL TIEMZ!!!!!!!!!!!!! So amazing!!! I also got very sweet shoestrings~~~

Z was the funniest though...............That girl!! I called her a pig the moment I opened her package XD She bought Rin 2&3 for me!!! Thats why I wasn't allowed to buy it XD

The night went pretty loud. We watched a whole lot of awesome youtube clips XD The mad yelling chinese and that dude that destroys a given card...LOL!!!!!!!! We also looked at VERY CUTE KITTENS and some kinda ape x3333 We checked some fotoshoot pics and then went all to bed. (Of course, Z and me where playing still xDD)

DAY 4: 26-08
MAH BIRTHDAY

OF AWESOME WIN

Lilly and Linda were early awake OAO I woke up and saw them, then went to bed againXD Somewhere around 11 everyone got up and we ate...PIZZA!!! IT WAS SO DELICIOUS!!! Too bad Z became sick of it...and the eggs OAO But it was a truly amazing breakfast...

After that...snort. We did a lot of make up, hair, drawed with pens some kind of kewl tattoo's!! I post everything when I have it XD Also!! Z made me Ruki marks on my neck!! AND I WALKED AROUND IN PUBLIC!!!

“Hey...I finally know why they all look so weird to me...TEH MARKS!!!”

Later in the afternoon we made sushi~ It was SO tasty!!! The wasabi was the best! I always take too much and burn myself XDDDD~~~

Around 4-5 they had to go. Mhawh,m I didn't take it too hard >///< we all will be seeing each other in three weeks again OUO So thats good~~~

Me and Z had a relaxing after noon. We just spend the time we had together with fun stories and LOL stuff, good music and good food. I had to leave her around eleven pm, and she bought me to the train station >//////<

After all, these days rocked!! Of course I never want them to end. I hope I can go to Z's university one day so I won't be so far away!!!

Been far away for far too long

Leave out all the rest

Mon, 24 Aug 2009 06:21:40 GMT

I posted everywhere and thought i should here as well.

Thing is, I am at the best place in the world and having so much fun!!! Of course there are some not so sweet things to...But I've always been someone NOT to discuss shit in teh open and not to TEH people. Its under my heigh and mighty view that I have of myself.

Anyway...

I dreamed I was missing, you were so scared
But no one would listen, 'cause no one else cared
After my dreaming, I woke with this fear
What am I leaving when I'm done here?
So if you're asking me, I want you to know

When my time comes, forget the wrong that I've done
Help me leave behind some reasons to be missed
Don't resent me, and when you're feeling empty
Keep me in your memory,
leave out all the rest
leave out all the rest

Don't be afraid
I've taken my beating, I've shared what I made
I'm strong on the surface, not all the way through
I've never been perfect, but neither have you
So if you're asking me, I want you to know

Forgetting all the hurt inside you've learned to hide so well
Pretending someone else can come and save me from myself
I can't be who you are

I can't be who you are

Because u know~

Sat, 22 Aug 2009 20:22:56 GMT

Just made because only Zora knows!!!

YES ME DEAR.

even if u know, it haz two reasons, ONE FINGER CAN FIT THEM ALL XD

Pissed off!!

Tue, 18 Aug 2009 14:38:13 GMT

With mahself >_>

Dude, I cannot stand this shit...I feel like reading my books and writing for my fandoms, but never get myself up.

I'm awake since 11, stood up at 13, and seriously unhappy with me. Dude, I just took a half hour to get and going, but than I feel I will be away for hours, and have less time to spend with Zora when I'm back.

Also, my wash is waiting to get done and hung up.

ALSO, I have to change my sheets

Al-FUCKING-so!!!!! I feel so depressed with my fucked up laziness, I wanna eat pasta till I die.

Just when I got my make up done (which, suprisingly, never looks at good as I dream of it to be), I felt so hot...The smooth iron of my roomie isn't a cheap one, but good is it neither. DUDE, I can wait until tomorrow...No wait, THE DAY AFTER TOMORROW. Some money flows in, and already divided into sections:

At my work, I can get 90% off clothes (70% sale, 20% worker's rate), so I can shop there for 6 euro >///< There is a black long sleeve, a BIG body shawl, and a cap waiting for me.
HAIRSTUFF. Needs bad. Since I went to the barber, I cannot put the cheap shampoo in my hair...But today, the last drop of Kerastase was used up OAO So, Thursday, I will go back to my barber, get my shampoo AND. Finally. Fudge shaper. *big love there* ALSO, a good hairspray!! *Fudge Skyhigh* I will first call them to ask how much it will cost though >//>
Starbucks/Subway/Ticket. I think in this order? Of course I need some mo' for Sunday. FINALLY I CAN SEE MY BELOVED ZORA BACK >///<

Even though my roomie is the best, studying here would be just SO easy, and I cannot afford it, to go to Germany...Zora, I will give my utmost best and try as hard as possible to get to study next to you!!! OR I will have to nightride with the CityNightLine express every so often...

I probably have to delete this before J comes back, but I know now why I am aslo so jealous of her new 'friends'. Its easy for her to make one, go out with them and stuff. I am missing Zora and Julia so damn hard, and would wish we would just live close together to go out, cook, have fun, good afternoons, each other to hold when one is down. I somehow ripped apart any bonds I had with my previous friends. I mean, sure, for a friendship you have to try and stuff, but with everything that happened with my dad, on school, in the past. I cannot KEEP trying to have contact with them or bring them together. Social sites don't work for me, calling them is like a nightmare. I seriously feel like saying hi to them, but I haven't seen them since AGES (a year, probably. And I just remembered I didn't say Happy birthday to one of them...)

Everyone and everything seems always so far away from me, and at times I want to get out of my bed and have a fun day, I stop myself with my laziness...I mean, sure, I love to read good fanfictions, nothing against that. I love to dress up and do my make up (if it would look NICE).

GASHAAA.

Thats my final word. I'm gonna get some coffee now, look at my place in disgust, and hope the next days will pass QUICK as lighting.

(ps. Fuck final words. I know the days with Zora will be so cool and rocking, and after that I can order make up and music from the States.)

YO BABY

Mon, 10 Aug 2009 17:53:57 GMT

(I've been inspired by Hiroto's new posts and Nao's old posts, to blog a bit more often now again XD)

28-07-2009

TEH DAY I CUT MAH HAIR

This wheather was shining on me~~~~

It looked grey

But the sun peeked out

and it turned into a lovely day to get a haircut <3

On the way though, I saw an egg.

A-l-s-o!! THEY SELL FUDGE!! LIKE, GODDAMN MOTHERFUCKING FUDGE!!!

Behold the awesomeness ~~ http://www.fudge.com/

I totally have to get the Shapener and Skyhigh. MY PON HAIR DEMANDS IT.

When I was there, I bought the Fudge hairmask Dynamite. Me, me hair, and me nose loves it big times. What I also need is stuff from Kerastase, but I will wait till I can go back to those girls! They are my haircut-amazers now. They are totally freaking awesome, nice, fun, and chatty XD

-------and after that date, untill now XD---*

Also, I thought about getting that bird yellow into my hair, LOL. Naahwww, i am nyappy with my red bangs * //////////A////////* I feel so close to the red hot-ness that is Hiropon <3

Lemme show you some of my hairstylez XD Not that I put much efford into it *LOL*

Half Belly with dark eyes <3 The other half is missing because that side was utterly flat XD

EEEEK, I love it, they it goes up!! With better hair products and some smooth-iron-skillz, I will try to make this more Pon-like >//< He has some strands always going up and being a bit curly, I love that!!

Your Bellypon from her respective internship lockerroom:

And yes, I love that snake ring to death and beyond!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Anyway, today's Bellypon~~

Topping:

Bottoming: Mind the awesome shoes of fuckingsexyawesomeness.

Simple, clean, but holladamn I thing this outfit rocked XD and yeah, I love this shoes, even if I can't walk more than an hour on them >///< Then, my heels are starting to bitch (where the backstring of the shoe is, keeping the shit together).

F-u-r-t-h-e-r-m-o-r-e-!-!

MAC is taking over my life. One blusher/eye shadow/brush at a time!!!!I told myself not to buy anything from them until after the Miyavi concert. Till then, there is Zora, my birthday, Connichi and the concert, I have to save the shit up!!!

Anyway, I found something...mhnn, I don't want to call it 'therapeutic', but I find happiness and rest in doing it. Cleaning my brushes, that is XD I only own three: One blush brush from The Body Shop, an eye shadow brush, the 239 from MAC and my blush/foundation brush, the 129(short) brush. Totally loving to clean them with that brush cleanser from MAC <3<3<3

OTHER NEWS:

I find it slightly hard to: having sexy lips with all my glosses and lipsticks, AND TO DRINK HEALTHY ALL DAY!!!

Drinking: I am holding onto a plan ÛU I drink one glass in the morning, four bottles of evian water (I fill them up myself XD), one tea, one coffee, and at home another bottle evian. The only vain thing about this shit, is peeing like a mofo on crack >_>

MAC addicted
SHAWL ADDICTED
I am trying to find a good make up baggie with smaller compartments. I have a REALLY GOOD ONE from Esprit, but that thing is mofo huge >///< Its really hard to find a good make up bag, not even MAC has a good one >_>

I WANTS STARBUCKS NAO YES/YES? I hope they get that store open in Rotterdam BEFORE I leave my internship there >_>

Internship is btw good XD We got new clothes, oh yay!

AND VERY IMPORTANT:

I went to Ikea, just for fun (fuck that shit, I bought some thingie for shawls to keep in place. Its very awesome, it has 4x7 round wholes and hangs in my wardrobe).

ANYWAY, I reconsidered what my room is now and that I have to change things about it ûu Probably will take till next year to start/finish my project. Some of my furniture will get sold, so that I can afford a super awesome mega cool PAX wardrobe!!

THE SHITTIEST THING. I need/love/die for those slide doors... AND THE SLIDE DOORS ARE THE MOST EXPENSIVE THING OF THE WHOLE GODDAMN WARDROBE, even if I take the cheapest >//> So yeah, that will take forever to save up for. And because I am more into make up now than before, I want to make a small place beside the wardrobe for my -getting ready-. I always have to go to the bathroom or the living room, which sucks hard. Anyway, as said, it will take forever XDDDDD

SO THAT WAS IT..

KIKIKIKIKKKHHAAAAANNAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA

Wed, 05 Aug 2009 19:22:07 GMT

OAO;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;

I MEAN

WOAH SHIT WOAH

I AM LOVING THISSHITTHISHSHSHITITHSSIHSIHIRHRISHDishfnajsbfksajbfsjkfbskjfbaskjbsdkjabsdiuqw3gt4897gdbo
asjbcwoe9ynxlucgwob29f57rybcghj butkr8gfdbchiryjcduh ryecnuk jhunsde8tr6yeugdncyfwleo8ycgushmriopykufxdiufhydjlvcnfdijiovgfkok
*finger burn on desk*

The way they move!!!

Saga's whispering into Shou's ear!!!

THE WAY THEY. FUCKING. MOVE

THEIR BEAUTIFULNESS, THEIR SKILLS, THE SOUND!!!

THE. GUITAR. THE. DRUMMS. THE DRUMMS WERENT EVER SO PROMINENT!!!

NAO'S MOUTH!!!!!!!!!!!!

HIROTO FUCKING LIP SYNCHING WITH SHOU AT ONE TIME.

HIROTO'S BACK BENDING WHEN HE PLAYS!!!! ALL OF HIROTO *LOL* THE SOLOLOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO. HIS SOLO (no need for the whammy button )

TORA'S LONE AWESOMENESS!!!!

THE WAY THEY STOOD UP. AND MOVE

/sound I like the way she moooveeess (its a song XD)

I...I.....I want to ink

華

onto my body XD (this is not a sane, nor serious meant thought, people XD)

These are my thought of Hana >///< I will be feeling so damn proud when I buy this CD OAO;;;;;;;;; I...I feel like smiling and crying...

scratch that, I AM SMILING AND CRYING!!!!!!

hell yeah, I can haz haircut!~!!!

Wed, 29 Jul 2009 21:04:17 GMT

There will be a longer post about this. As for now;

before

AND AS IT IS RIGHT NOW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! (better pic will come soon too XD)

Harry, oh Harry

Tue, 21 Jul 2009 20:40:17 GMT

I WENT TO THE MOVIE

AND I LIKED IT

EVEN IF SOME THINGS WERE OFF

SOME THINGS WERE JUST HOW THEY HAD TO BE

|DDD

A-l-s-o-! Big news! My Lapdancer is actually not on my lap, but is now dancing on the table. You have been reading right, I cleaned of my desk where my baby boy is standing now.

Welcome to Blah-mountain, where you can haz as much bullshit as you need.

Sun, 19 Jul 2009 18:58:14 GMT

Mhnnn...yesterday...What have I done yesterday? I dont even know anymore..

Today, I cleaned up my room. As far as I could >_> The thing is a mess, really.

Other than that, I have the feeling I dont know what to do with my life, or what I am doing at all. Sure, I can live towards the next big thing and be my happy sweet self, but what about the in between stuff? From the 365 days we have, I spent at least 100 not the way I should or wanted...

Its like Zora said, and how I feel about my life at it is right now.

Alles geht den bach runter

Meh, and I am the optimistic one in the group...Sure I know than things will be alright, but when will that be? I cannot say no to myself, I cannot decline myself things. The really important stuff is lying around and things get tougher with every day. Some cruel moments, I am being remindend of my mother, and that I am doing the EXACT same mistakes she did, although I never wanted it to be that way..

Oh, I know what I did yesterday...Some kind of re-inventing/styling my ink. Another thing that frustrates me to no limits; My body is still not healing from that skin stuff, the moment I can have a tattoo is still the far future. The thing is, if you hate to regret things, to have not done them, if you are just not able to do things at the time you WANT too...Its heavy on my mind.

And I miss Zora. And Julia. MUCH. Not only on msn, in general. A bit more than a month, and I have Zora back again >///<v

Also, the two sides in me are very conflicting and irritating. The good and the bad side, having battles all over again. I hear the Good side in me SO Often, just to have the bad side win and get the last word in me. I mean, sure I can make lists and lists one atop another. I can make piles of important stuff and remind myself to call certain people or write letters. Also I know that it just a bit of work, done in a minute, YET I cannot beat myself to actually do it.

Other stuff is on my mind too...but its not a good place to tell about it >_> Not like its THAT important or something. Its human, right? To wish for things,wish for more things, not getting them.

And yeah, tomorrow I will just make the same mistakes I did earlier, defending them with my live as if they aren't that meaningfull.

At last,

The word Sparen will be deleted out of my vocabulary. I will try it, but won't make any promises, at least not to myself. I get money, I spend it. It how I work, its how I deal, its who I am. With the lists I make I can keep the important stuff in mind, so everything else is ready to roll and spend. Its the only pleasure I can give to myself as it is right now.

Gosh >_> So much talk, so less action... Its who I am right? Should as well be born as that lazy ass animal.

All I can do is turn up the iPod and eat. Other things are just enabled. And my stupid me knows that tomorrow will either be 'one of those day' or just BETTER than all those before.